Guess who's back?

have been away for sometime but not by choice I assure you.. got tangled up with some things and well the short version is I just didn't have any spare time.. sounds like a cliche? well that's how it is actually.. won't bore any one with updates of what happened in the break but that's partly, well almost completely cos I have another point to ponder...

not to sound too bitchy or anything but life just has a way of turning around and giving you a good kick on the arse and get u back to reality doesn't it? n just when u thought that things were settled too... (another cliche u might think? what is with me today eh?)

almost at the end of the masters n I still can't figure out y the hell I signed up for it exactly.. (what a coupla months does to a person is absolutely amazing) except for the fact that it lets me meet up with my gf frequently :) sure it spruces up my CV and knowldge etc etc but it does very lit'l to help in deciding what I am actually gonna do afterwards.. very dissapointingly I myt add..

tis becoming a source of absolute wonder to me how ppl decide what they are gonna do in life.. I mean well a guy who studies his ass off for 3 yrs in school n then endures a further 5 - 7 yrs of medical college (depending on what the theme of the dominant union is, which is rarely nothing but striking against one thing or the other) is obviously looking fwd to a career as a doctor.. (which in itself is amazingly stupid or noble depending on ur view point but that's a different story best left for another time) but that type of person is quite the minority.. either that or I have been hanging out with the wrong crowd..hmm.. now that's a thought.. but I degress again.. more to the point how do the others decide what they want to do for the rest of their lives?? I mean..their whole freaking life??? or do they just let life decide it for them.. do whatever seems appropriate at the time n hopefully it'll get u to some point where you can look back and say...aahhh that's me and retire with a villa in spain and some cash to burn...ok ok forget the villa but u get my drift...

that kinda brings me back to the age old question..do v do what v like or do v do what that pays? for some I gues both are the same..hurray for them.. I really mean it too.. they r the lucky few..i think.. I mean given that our likes and dislikes are prone to change I'm not quite sure whether there is a choice anymore..and once u r far enough into something to actually realise that u r in the wrong trade u r stuck there anyways.. unless u have no obligations or commitments whatsoever you can say screw it n move on to yet another thing..again a lucky few of whom at this point i'm beginning to suspect doesn't exist...

so does that mean that the majority of the ppl are doing something that they haven't planned on and just got there by accident? I mean does ur future depend on which turn u take at some road? myt b a bit of an extreme example but it kinda sucks when u think abt it doesn't it? even more importantly r they enjoying it so much or dont they just have a choice? not very encouraging either way I should think.. or mayb I should just stop raving and get that job application filled out........................